Christmas time is here. Happiness and cheer. Or not so much. I don't mean to sound so Scroogish. It's just that the holiday season is turning into the holiday sadness, such as
* Total annoyance with the Secret Santa game at work - the complex logistics, the forced clue-dropping, having to make dip for the big "reveal" party. Yelch.
* Inability to shop. At all. I finally gave in last night and dropped a load at Amazon just to get some of it done.
* Counting down the days until Christmas...is over.
* Irritation at the onslaught of Christmas commercials with the Rockwell-esque and Courier & Ives Christmas scenes that don't exist but that I somehow feel like they should.
* Repulsion over the excess...the recent tour of a very big home with very expensive furniture, art, decor...millions invested in it all...for a family of three.
* The anticipation for the childlike wonder to flicker and flare inside me somewhere...and the simultaneous knowing that I'm waiting in vain
* Telling Mom every day that I'll help her finish decorating the Christmas tree...and not doing it
* Investigating the box of goodies from FudgeyNut that Dad brought home and thinking about devouring the whole lot in a fit of depressed binge-eating
* Having to call the doctor, ask for more of The Medicine, because, well, bah humbug
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
The Merry Malaise
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4 cat calls:
you forgot to list annoying comments that push product - even in your own blog you can't escape the Christmas shopping pressure.
It's a rought time of year for a lot of people - don't beat yourself up over it.
well yes, but at least it has the word cock in it. that's always fun.
sometimes i think we just spend so much time resisting the spirit of things by saying they don't exist bcs we see ourselves apart from them, but that if we were to pick up an ornament or string of lights and finish something and maybe indulge in some hotchocolate with rum we'll find it wasn't so far from us after all.
I am very slowly coming into the Christmas spirit, but I don't know if it's ever going to reach full throttle this year. I've been listening to "Go Tell It on the Mountain" a lot, though, and that helps. Man, I love that guy...
If shopping on amazon is giving up or giving in, than I am the world's suckiest Christmas shopper.
Now, I demand you open that present soon. Even for just a small smile.
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